I hate it!!! I hate myself!!!

You're not trash!  Hopefully you read through some of these posts for they provide a lot of information. 1 in 5 people have some form of the virus!  That's a whole lotta people, including myself.  I caught it from someone who didn't tell me they had it, perhaps they didn't know, I don't know.. Certainly I get down on myself b/c of it,but ultimately I've got to hold my head up.  For sure, you will find someone who will see you, love you for you, and look past the virus.

hey girl I got it about a year ago (last July), I was 21, and in college just like you.

I don't have any real relationships and don't desire one for various issues, including herpes. All I can say is to love yourself before anyone else. Don't hate yourself for this, you are only human and you are NOT the only one. I personally blame society including media and hollywood bs for making our society so sex crazed. In turn us females in our twenties tend to judge ourselves by our sexual worth to others. With herpes, we feel worthless becasue we feel no one wants us sexually. Just know that when a person looks at you, they don't see herpes, they see you. While it is your responsibility to try and not spread it to others, it's not neccessary to inform everyone u have it. Try and find things you enjoy that don't revolve around the same old college sh*t which is drinking yourself silly and seeing who you end up hooking up with. You will never find happiness in things that revolve around what got you infected in the first place.

You call yourself 'trash' so I understand you've lost respect for yourself. That is fine, it happens to the best of us. But what you must do from here is earn that respect back for yourself. I tried taking up many extreme sports like mountain biking and snowboarding. It gives me a rush while at the same time I'm improving my health=less outbreaks. It also takes me away from situations where I'm judged on sexual attractiveness i.e. drinking at a bar, clubbing, hanging out with other females on the prowl. I still have trouble to this day with social situations in which I'm comparing myself to other females who prob do/don't have herpes/ or looking at guys I'll never have the guts to be with b/c of herpes.

Your so far down right now...the only way to go is up.

I'm new to this site but I read your post and I thought I HAD to get you to see that you are not the only 20 something attractive female college student living with this severe inconvenience.  Keep your head up girl pls message me any time if you need some one to talk to..like I said I've been living with this for a year..not completely happily..it was one of the roughest years of my life but I pride myself in being strong enough to last a year, you are to.

Sometimes in life things like this happen. I myself has never thought that i can have herpes let alone another std. I have live with the same man who knows he has herpes but never had the courage to tell me about it and he also cheated many times and i got another std but that doesnt mean that you are in the wrong. We made mistakes and live still goes on and i believe that you will accept it one day. When you find someone else which i believe you will just be honest with him, you are still young there are many things you can do to make this sickness lesser and one day there will be a cure for this decease, believe in yourselve and believe that you are not the problem.

I will.