cheating & genital herpes

i am 17 and i have genital herpes.. i got it from my ex that cheated on me and didnt tell me till after our relatioship ended. we were together two years.. i went in to get my yearly pap smear and all my std tests and i found out i have this..

but now i feel alone;; betrayed;; and like im dirty;;

and the worst part is i have eczema herpeticum now on my stomach;;

i hate my life and wish everyday it was alll un real;;

and the worse part is my ex DOESNT care and claims he's clean.

but i didnt get it from birth and ive only slept with him;;

i feel like no one will ever want me or anything;;

the worstest part im sacerd shitless of my vagina