I was also 17 when I contracted this virus, and I know that it makes you feel unclean, and dirty, and I can't even face the name of it every time I get sick. I just tell my family that I am sick again with my virus. I am ashamed to call it herpes. I am 20 years old and suffer from this horrible, and painful disease, and I want you to know that you don't have to feel alone. If you would like, you can email me about it. I'll send you my email in a PM. Here's my story, if it will make you feel any better:
I had met an amazing boy when I was 15 in high school, and he was my best friend. My everything. He is what made me get out of bed and go to school everyday. I was just a virgin infatuated by this amazing boy who was quiet yet rebellious like me.
He too was a virgin, but I made the stupid mistake of telling him I wasn't to make it sound as if I were more experienced. That was the most retarded thing I could have done.
By the time I was 17, he had already graduated high school and had gone to college, and I was only a junior in high school. I had gotten into contact with him again, and our friendship was rekindled. We had begin to fall in love.
That coming spring break was one that changed my life. I lied to my family and told them that I was going to be spending the week with my friend Anneka, and really got a hotel with the boy of my dreams. He was sick when he got there, and told me he didn't feel like doing anything sexual for a while, but I was so excited to be with him, I pushed him into it.
We made love, and kissed, and it was just the happiest moment of my life. . . That is until a week later, I got blisters in my throat, on my fingers, on my feet, and I was just so sick . . . All of a sudden, it started to burn when I peed, and when I felt down there, the blisters had even spread there.
I told my mom that there were blisters in my throat, and she took me to the emergency room. I was too afraid to tell the doctor that they were in my vagina, and he started to think I had some sort of infection. That's when I finally told my mom that they were down in my vagina. As soon as I told the doctor, he examined me and told me, yeah, You have herpes, and said it in such a horrible way, I felt so disgusting. . . He made me feel so dirty, that I was ready to sue the hospital for the way he treated me. He told me I should never try to have kids and that I would suffer for the rest of my life for it. I just started crying, and begged him to check that it wasn't the type 2, (sexually transmitted virus.)
He didn't want to even give me the time of day, and told me that it wouldn't do any good, but did it anyway.
I immediately called my boyfriend and told him what happened, and he flipped out saying he never had herpes, and was a virgin when he was with me and that it must of been from me sleeping with all of those guys I was with before him. That's when I broke down and told him that I lied about those guys. He just laughed at me and called me a liar, and that he had never had that disease and never had an outbreak.
At that moment, I had nobody. My dad was so pissed off, he wouldn't even talk to me. My boyfriend called my dad and told him that it wasn't him b/c I had had sex with other guys. That was my biggest mistake. I was a virgin, and no one believed me.
Later on that day, I got a call back from the hospital with the test results. They came back negative for the Type 2 sexually transmitted virus. They told me that it was the type 1 virus that caused cold sores.
I still to this day break out in my vagina and am puzzled by how the type 1 virus affected me down there. That's until I remembered that my boyfriend who is now my husband, (long story, but we're still together and with 2 kids now who are clean from the virus.) was sick that week. He tells me that he believes me now about never having sex with those other guys, but I just know he says it to make me happy. And to top it off, he still hasn't gotten himself tested.
I think that he may have had a cold sore when we had sex and oral sex. He refuses to believe it, but I know that this is the only way I could have gotten the disease down there. I tested negative for type 2.
My senior year in high school was the most embarrassing thing in my life and so uncomfortable to even deal with. Herpes is something you hear jokes about all the time, and it hurt me every time someone would joke about it. They didn't know how painful it really is. When we had our STD briefing in Health class, I just sat there feeling so uncomfortable whenever someone would make fun of it when it was talked about, or make noises of disgust. I truly felt alone. . .
I know it will be hard for you, but I want you to know that if you are still in high school, when you are done, it will be better. Things are so much easier to deal with when your friends are adults. Just keep your hopes up, and realize that there are others out there like you, and there are men that will love you no matter what. Don't feel ashamed of it. You were brave to post here, and I admire that, b/c it took me until I turned 20 to do it. Just stick in there!
He tells me that he believes me now about never having sex with those other guys, but I just know he says it to make me happy. And to top it off, he still hasn't gotten himself tested.
Anyways, I just want to let you
I was also 17 when I contracted this virus, and I know that it makes you feel unclean, and dirty, and I can't even face the name of it every time I get sick. I just tell my family that I am sick again with my virus. I am ashamed to call it herpes. I am 20 years old and suffer from this horrible, and painful disease, and I want you to know that you don't have to feel alone. If you would like, you can email me about it. I'll send you my email in a PM. Here's my story, if it will make you feel any better:
I had met an amazing boy when I was 15 in high school, and he was my best friend. My everything. He is what made me get out of bed and go to school everyday. I was just a virgin infatuated by this amazing boy who was quiet yet rebellious like me.
He too was a virgin, but I made the stupid mistake of telling him I wasn't to make it sound as if I were more experienced. That was the most retarded thing I could have done.
By the time I was 17, he had already graduated high school and had gone to college, and I was only a junior in high school. I had gotten into contact with him again, and our friendship was rekindled. We had begin to fall in love.
That coming spring break was one that changed my life. I lied to my family and told them that I was going to be spending the week with my friend Anneka, and really got a hotel with the boy of my dreams. He was sick when he got there, and told me he didn't feel like doing anything sexual for a while, but I was so excited to be with him, I pushed him into it.
We made love, and kissed, and it was just the happiest moment of my life. . . That is until a week later, I got blisters in my throat, on my fingers, on my feet, and I was just so sick . . . All of a sudden, it started to burn when I peed, and when I felt down there, the blisters had even spread there.
I told my mom that there were blisters in my throat, and she took me to the emergency room. I was too afraid to tell the doctor that they were in my vagina, and he started to think I had some sort of infection. That's when I finally told my mom that they were down in my vagina. As soon as I told the doctor, he examined me and told me, yeah, You have herpes, and said it in such a horrible way, I felt so disgusting. . . He made me feel so dirty, that I was ready to sue the hospital for the way he treated me. He told me I should never try to have kids and that I would suffer for the rest of my life for it. I just started crying, and begged him to check that it wasn't the type 2, (sexually transmitted virus.)
He didn't want to even give me the time of day, and told me that it wouldn't do any good, but did it anyway.
I immediately called my boyfriend and told him what happened, and he flipped out saying he never had herpes, and was a virgin when he was with me and that it must of been from me sleeping with all of those guys I was with before him. That's when I broke down and told him that I lied about those guys. He just laughed at me and called me a liar, and that he had never had that disease and never had an outbreak.
At that moment, I had nobody. My dad was so pissed off, he wouldn't even talk to me. My boyfriend called my dad and told him that it wasn't him b/c I had had sex with other guys. That was my biggest mistake. I was a virgin, and no one believed me.
Later on that day, I got a call back from the hospital with the test results. They came back negative for the Type 2 sexually transmitted virus. They told me that it was the type 1 virus that caused cold sores.
I still to this day break out in my vagina and am puzzled by how the type 1 virus affected me down there. That's until I remembered that my boyfriend who is now my husband, (long story, but we're still together and with 2 kids now who are clean from the virus.) was sick that week. He tells me that he believes me now about never having sex with those other guys, but I just know he says it to make me happy. And to top it off, he still hasn't gotten himself tested.
I think that he may have had a cold sore when we had sex and oral sex. He refuses to believe it, but I know that this is the only way I could have gotten the disease down there. I tested negative for type 2.
My senior year in high school was the most embarrassing thing in my life and so uncomfortable to even deal with. Herpes is something you hear jokes about all the time, and it hurt me every time someone would joke about it. They didn't know how painful it really is. When we had our STD briefing in Health class, I just sat there feeling so uncomfortable whenever someone would make fun of it when it was talked about, or make noises of disgust. I truly felt alone. . .
I know it will be hard for you, but I want you to know that if you are still in high school, when you are done, it will be better. Things are so much easier to deal with when your friends are adults. Just keep your hopes up, and realize that there are others out there like you, and there are men that will love you no matter what. Don't feel ashamed of it. You were brave to post here, and I admire that, b/c it took me until I turned 20 to do it. Just stick in there!
He tells me that he believes me now about never having sex with those other guys, but I just know he says it to make me happy. And to top it off, he still hasn't gotten himself tested.
Anyways, I just want to let you