On October 7th was the first day and the last day of my life i felt, that day i found out i got herpies from a guy i thought was faithful to me. We broke up and not thinking about it then he passed away. I never thought what he ment by it but he sent me a email saying he loves me and that he is sorry, i didnt understand what he ment by that. Then i got the call. When i first was told about it i was floored shocked upset.i have not had a outbreak but it could happen. Alot of my friends were worried about me ect... when i told them they all looked at me walked away one by one. I texted them all said i am still the same person as before you cant get it but i cant make people change there minds.
I am having a hard time with this cause now i am SCARED to even think about getting with someone!!! The fact i have it and would feel bad if someone got it cause we all know condoms break. I am more carefull now around my child,, i dont think i will ever be the same again mentally.
I got it a few months ago after deciding to give my ex-husband another chance. We did not use any protection and about a week later he tells me that he might have herpes. I wasn't sure how to feel at first and then I figured okay we are together and I guess if things stay that way then it's not so big of a deal. It turned out that he did give it to me and I was even hospitalized with viral meningitis believed to have been caused by herpes. Well, all was fine until a few days ago when I realized he was keeping things from me and turns out he was still communicating with some other lady behind my back and so I left him, again. Now I just feel kind of stunned that this is happening and now I feel like no one will ever want me.