I want to know!

Ok so I'm getting extremely frustrated and I thought maybe you could help.

I've had frequent UTI's since I lost my virginity five years ago, in March I began having symptoms of a UTI (which is virtually second nature to me) and went along with the usual antibiotics. WELL this was not a UTI! I remember telling my doctor specifically that, "Now a UTI will feel like nothing!"

Upon returning from my trip (and yes, my first "outbreak" or whatever it was, was on a vacation which royally sucked) I went to the doctor and he said all my symptoms indicated herpes. I freaked out of course, but the culture came back negative as I was pretty much through the worst of it and only had discharge.

He told me to come back in 2 months for a blood test.

Then with my luck a month later roles around (this time right before final exams- wtf?) and the SAME symptoms happened again.  It always started with what felt like a really bad UTI, then came the unbearable itching, then soreness, then feeling like I had to pee in the bathtub and literally not wanting to drink ANYTHING.

So I went back to the same doc and he does yet another culture- again negative.  At this point I'm miserable and annoyed that I didn't have a diagnosis! He gives me a prescription for valtrex which helps..ok maybe it was a "placebo" but it really did help.

As scheduled I come back a month later for my blood test having virtually already gone through the emontional "stages of acceptence" and what do I find out...

NEGATIVE.

Are you kidding?

Of course my boyfriend thought I was nuts for being "upset about NOT having an STD" but quite frankly, I'd rather know what I have then be in this state of limbo.

I have refills of the valtrex and I'm going to take them until I know what's going on, because I tell you, it helped.

And now I'm waiting around afraid of my next "outbreak" or "episode" or whatever the hell this is so that maybe they can finally figure out what's wrong with me.

I never would have assumed I have herpes (and visited all kinds of herpes websites and message boards etc.) if I thought there was another diagnosis it could be....

Any thoughts? I just want my mind to finally be at peace and know what I have :(