Script 2 - Take 1: You have herpes - you have no idea who gave it to you but once diagnosed, you feel ashamed - demoralized - frustrated and even a bit fearful. When you get stressed, you typically get recurrences of the rash and they are painful and you get somewhat depressed when it happens.&...
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Diagnosed after years of marriage
Anonymous
Sunday, September 21, 2008 at 03:27 AM
Now it's been over 2 months when my husband came home with his test results, leading me to say (well I know I don't have it), because of no breakouts like you have had for many,many years. Well..surprise a month later I get my results. I really wanted to just disappear, test results appear to be a recent infection along with a bacteral yeast infection I can't get rid of. Gyn after 3 checkups one after another, no breakouts. Then I'm left with not knowing the unknown in my marriage. Then hating the thought of sex, feeling dirty, diseased and lonely. My husband doesn't want to talk about it, acts indifferent to me. I did accused him at first and he was ready to end it if there would be no sex in the future. I spend my time praying for healing and love from God above to help me get through life. I wish I could tell whomever is listening to me the whole story from the beginning of how this all came about. I still have my doubts about my husband because things just didn't seem right for awhile. I know some of you have had the same mind games going around and around in your head of how it could have happened to you. I also wish I could help other's. I'm still in limbo, I'm on Valtrex and my husband refuses to take until he has a outbreak. I really thinks honestly, my prayers will be anwsered in some form. May God Bless all that have, are and will go through what I'm having to live with HSV2. I'm even afraid that if my husband is not honest, he could possibly give me aids.
Now it's been over 2 months when my husband came home with his test results, leading me to say (well I know I don't have it), because of no breakouts like you have had for many,many years. Well..surprise a month later I get my results. I really wanted to just disappear, test results appear to be a recent infection along with a bacteral yeast infection I can't get rid of. Gyn after 3 checkups one after another, no breakouts. Then I'm left with not knowing the unknown in my marriage. Then hating the thought of sex, feeling dirty, diseased and lonely. My husband doesn't want to talk about it, acts indifferent to me. I did accused him at first and he was ready to end it if there would be no sex in the future. I spend my time praying for healing and love from God above to help me get through life. I wish I could tell whomever is listening to me the whole story from the beginning of how this all came about. I still have my doubts about my husband because things just didn't seem right for awhile. I know some of you have had the same mind games going around and around in your head of how it could have happened to you. I also wish I could help other's. I'm still in limbo, I'm on Valtrex and my husband refuses to take until he has a outbreak. I really thinks honestly, my prayers will be anwsered in some form. May God Bless all that have, are and will go through what I'm having to live with HSV2. I'm even afraid that if my husband is not honest, he could possibly give me aids.