Living with Herpes kind of gives you slim pickins when it comes to having someone to have sex with.  You have to tell them what you have and risk them rejecting you.  Well, I told a man what I had and he was still willing to have sex with me.  Truthfully I haven't had sex for more than a year and I was beginning to think that I was never going to have sex again.   Well, I thought about it alot.....we would make out and fool around a little....but as time went on I noticed that it felt kind of empty.  As time went on I noticed that me having herpes wasnt the biggest issue.  I didnt love the man and he didnt love me. 

I broke it off with him...maybe the man was desperate....but I certainly am not....sex isnt that serious to give yourself away for nothing.

When I first got herpes I used to feel that no one would be able to love me anymore or most importantly I wouldnt love myself.  This situation that I came across has showm me how much Ive grown since then.  No matter what my condition may be....I deserve real love.  I deserve to be treasured and I have tremendous value.  I don't know when I will ever have sex again, but sex in itself isnt that important.  Being accepted and loved is what is most important and having herpes would no way hinder the possibility of someone showing that to you.  I have hope that one day I will meet someone who will accept me as I am.  Because I wouldn't have it any other way.  I will never settle for less than what I deserve.  I am not anything less than what I was before I contracted Herpes and I will never let myself think that way.  Im am going to be very patient and just live my life day by day.