Full of Regrets

i contacted hsv from a prostitute.  i didn't know i got it and passed it on to my wife.  it's been 2 years since it happened.  my marriage is going downhill.  if i haven't lost my wife legally, i've lost her emotionally.  she told me that the only thing still keeping her from divorcing me is the kids.  i try to amend and still hope for the better.  i love my wife and will never stop loving her.

i get frequent outbreaks, sometimes as often as every month.  my wife has it less frequent.  however, everytime she gets it, she hates me and wants to kick me out. 

i wish i can turn back time.  i wish i didn't cross the line.  i pray there'll be better tomorrow, but there doesn't seem to be a light in the end of the tunnel.