Diagnosed today

I knew the risk I was running when I took my husband back. I thought we were careful, just not careful enough appearantly. We were split for 8 mths at one point and during that split his test came back positive, he blamed me. My tests came back negative. Until today. 18 months later.

I'm just trying to not be angry at him. I knew the potential risk. I love him. He loves me, and that should be enough. But I'm finding that I'm not getting any solice in his love right now. I know he understands exactly what I'm going through, but it isn't enough.

I feel so ashamed and embarrassed. I feel like I have this enormous blinking sign over my head that reads:  "She has genital herpes!" I don't know who I can talk to about this. I'm already battling chronic depression and it is like all the progress I feel like I have made just went down the drain.
My marriage isn't the most stable one in the bunch, but now I feel even more trapped then I did before. I feel like no one will ever understand or even try to be understanding. Guys are so much more harsh then girls when it comes to serious issues.

The Dr. explained that 1 in 4 people have type two these days. And the other 3 just haven't had an outbreak. He said it is so very common, but then how come all these facts give me no comfort. The facts: I'm in a single partner relationship, more then 50% of the population has it, it isn't life threatening, there are treatments, & otherwise I'm a very healthy person. Still even as I read it outloud, I don't feel better.

I think the only thing running through my mind is: What if my marriage fails? There isn't a cure, I am going to have a friendly and uncomfortable reminder of what love did to me.

Support, encouragement, and slaps in the face are welcomed.