Scared, Lost, Looking for hope

So I just got back from the doctor. I pretty much knew what to expect when I went in but hearing her confirm my fear wasn't easy.  What I have looks a lot like herpes.  I won't know for sure until the culture comes back, but I'm no fool.  I'm 24 years old, and have slept with a total of three men.  My first outbreak became recognizable a few days ago.  Since then I have spent days researching and crying my eyes out.  I have a lot of trouble imagining my life going on as good as it was before.  I guess you don't know what you have until it's gone.  I feel like I have a big sign on my forehead that says "I HAVE HERPES" and everyone will know just by looking at me that I'm damaged goods.  I'm afraid of the judgement people will pass.  I'm afraid of telling the man I think I got it from.  I'm afraid of the look of discust in people's eyes when I tell them. And I'm afraid because before I did my research...dating someone with herpes was something I wasn't willing to do myself.

I'm trying really hard to have hope.  Hope that I might still meet someone special. Hope that I might have really infrequent outbreaks.  Hope that I can use this "opportunity" to refocus on myself and become healthier overall. Hope that this isn't the end of my life.  Hope that it'll get easier, a little every day, to feel like I'm not worthless, to feel like it's still possible for people (in general) to care about and love me.  Right now it doesn't seem possible.  But I'm going to try.

Any advice or insight anyone can offer me would be so greatly appreciated.  I'm really really lucky in that my mom has been really supportive through this whole thing and continues to love me no matter what.  But she doesn't have herpes and lives pretty far away.  And despite 1 in 5 Americans having the virus, I still feel completely alone.