18 years old, and really confused

I found out four days before christmas 2007 that I had genital herpes. I didnt believe it. I thought the tests had to be wrong. I have only been with two men, i knew neither one had genital herpes. So how did i get it? I found out that my most recent partner had herpes simplex 1.... A couple days after he had given me oral sex he had a cold sore...

So it really is possible to get genital herpes from recieving oral sex. I am still devistated.

Worse of all I gave it to a ex boyfriend before I knew i even had the virus.

I feel like a horrible person, I feel less disirble, and like a dirty person. I have read alot of online articles, but it doesnt seem to help. And my parents don't know what to say to me to make it better.

~Stacey~