I was 18 when I was tested and it was told that I had genital herpes. I just started dating the man of my dream's and after having intercourse, is when it all began. He says to this day that he never had it, but I know he had to have been a carrier of this disease. I am currently with him still and hope to marry him one day, but it pains me to believe that he was the one who gave it to me. I don't love him less, but I'm frustrated at the fact that he has no idea what kind of pain I go through, embarrassment I feel, how unloved/dirty I feel at times and how scared I am. I use to be the one who was scared of sitting on a public toilet because I didn't want to get a disease or share a drink or share food or touch some ones hand.... and now I'm the one people have to worry about. I currently am going through an outbreak right now and I'm in so much pain....I feel like at times I just want to give up. I'm only one my 2nd year of this stuff and I have a lifetime still!!!! I've tired everything and anything to help reduce my outbreaks and yet nothing seems to work for me. I'm also scared, because I am in my 3rd year of college studying to be a teacher and I worry that when I am a teacher my outbreaks will get worse. I LOVE kids and I've always wanted to be a teacher, but I fear that my stress levels will hit the sky and I will be more likely to get outbreaks, more frequently. I'm at a across road as of right now and don't know what to do. Needing Gods's help more than ever.....
I know exactly how you are feeling. I am also going to school to become a teacher, and I'm also afraid that my stress will just make things worse. I've only had genital herpes for about 11 months, and I stopped working and going to school. I feel into a really bad depression so my fiance said he wants me to just stop everything so that I can recover. Now I'm afraid of going back to school and work. All I know is that I just have to face facts and realize that it's a part of me now. So we must all just try and get through it. Since you've had this disease longer than I have I wanted to ask you if within time does it gets easier?