Thursday, February 16, 2012

Scared, but content.

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sjh

sjh

Mon, March 16, 2009

I was 18 when i found out i had HSV-2 (genital). For awhile i was in denial, i knew it could happen to me, but i just ignored it. For months i acted as if it wasnt true. I didnt have unprotected sex, i never mentioned it to even my self. I took my medicine and just went on until one night i broke down and cried. It was slowly tearing me up inside to be dealing with this alone. Though i did tell the guy who gave it to me he opted to be there for me, but i was still alone. I found the courage to tell me bestfriend. She assured me that she would always love me despite that. I fond peace with those words. However, i have yet to tell a soul besides her and the guy. I try to live day to day just like anyone else, but when it comes to dating i just dont get close enough to have to reveal this. I am content, for now, with the whole overall situation. I just wish i could get the courage to tell me father. I cant bare the disappointment and contempt that may come from the conversation. it has only been two years. (20yrs old)

Anonymous
marissa
3/24/09 1:31pm

I was 18 when i got it to and i was pretty much in the same exact boat. I am turning 22 now and like you said, I am content overall, but when it comes to dating, it's hard to let myself come close. I've told my close friends who are supper supportive so that helps a lot. It's a daily struggle. Some days i feel great and i don't even think about it. Some days...are not so great. lol. But the important thing is to stay healthy. exercise, eat good, surround yourself with good positive people. And anytime you are feeling down, do things that make you feel better! For me, it's grabbing coffee with my best friend, or drawing, or writing! It can be a burdon but the way i look at it is this...i have a choice. I can either choose to be miserable about it, and really let it bring me down and let it turn me into a person i dont want to be. Or i can choose remain positive, live my life thoroughly and with meaning. I think the answer is obvious. Life is short, it's the only one i have so I MUST find a way to be happy! Hope you find peace down the line. I'm not there yet, but i think i'm on the right path =) Just know you are not alone!

 

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