Scared, but content.

I was 18 when i found out i had HSV-2 (genital). For awhile i was in denial, i knew it could happen to me, but i just ignored it. For months i acted as if it wasnt true. I didnt have unprotected sex, i never mentioned it to even my self. I took my medicine and just went on until one night i broke down and cried. It was slowly tearing me up inside to be dealing with this alone. Though i did tell the guy who gave it to me he opted to be there for me, but i was still alone. I found the courage to tell me bestfriend. She assured me that she would always love me despite that. I fond peace with those words. However, i have yet to tell a soul besides her and the guy. I try to live day to day just like anyone else, but when it comes to dating i just dont get close enough to have to reveal this. I am content, for now, with the whole overall situation. I just wish i could get the courage to tell me father. I cant bare the disappointment and contempt that may come from the conversation. it has only been two years. (20yrs old)