I've been with my boyfriend for about 9 months now. We have had our ups and downs but in the end we always find our way back to one another. We had sex last week and within a day all the signs were there (for me) of herpes. I freaked out, went to a doctor and was told that it does, in fact, look like herpes. She took some tests and I won't know for sure until 2 weeks from now. My boyfriend and I have talked about it, and he is unbelievably calm; trying to convince me that things will be ok. He keeps telling me we are in this together and just to wait for the results. I feel like I just hit a brick wall. I keep going back and forth in emotional dysfunction: 1)being thankful I'm still alive and it could be much worse, 2) wondering how this could possibly be happening when I have always been careful and been in long-term committed relationships. Even my doctor explained to me that the only way I could have truly protected myself against not getting it was to never have sex. Now, i think my boyfriend is more scared of having given it to me (if he tests positive), and I'm scared he's going to leave me. I keep randomly bursting into tears because it just doesn't make sense to me, not to mention the last week has been the most physically painful time of my entire life. I feel so alone, so scared and I don't know how to control my emotions about this. I have little desire to do anything anymore, I constantly think about herpes, read about it and am losing my mind. Some people on this site have written very positive comments of relationships, new beginnings and how life isn't over because of herpes. What I'd like to ask is how did you overcome this, learn to live with it, and remain positive on a daily basis?
Thanks in advance for any responses.
