any thoughts?

Hi all, ok so I'm gradually learning to adapt my life to, and learn to live with, this disease. I'm starting to see life differently; appreciating my family and friends in a whole new light. There are a few things I'm finding particularly difficult and am hoping someone can help me. Other than the daily reminder from Valtrex every morning, this would be very easy to put in the back of my mind and almost 'forget' that I have this disease (until I get another outbreak). Once I start to think about it again...all I feel is contamination. Even though, I suppose, I am technically infectious...it's a very weird feeling to want to get away from myself. Is this good so that I keep myself in check and don't do something stupid? or does this pass in time?

My next question...I'm with the guy that potentially infected me; not blaming him (either way I have it now)...but I still think he should get tested. He keeps putting it off, doesn't like me talking about herpes and when I told him my diagnosis he didn't acknowledge it as a problem. All he said was..."you can't die from it, it isn't the end of the world". I'm wondering if I'm making too much of a big deal about this? As I've read through many other posts and articles, herpes is widely criticized and few people actually know what it really is. I am no stranger to that, as before I got it, I had no idea what it was either. I just don't know if this is something I basically need to get through myself, or what I think is legitimate and he just isn't supportive. Because of the lack of support, I feel really alone even though I'm with him...and now I dont know what to do.

Anyways...I'm not really sure if my post makes much sense, but I'm really hoping someone can shed light on what I'm feeling and if it's normal or I'm making too much out of everything. I can't just forget that I have this, because now it's a part of me...and until I can sort out this stuff...I don't think I'll be able to move on.

Thanks in advance to anyone reading this/responding