oh no, i could lose the person i love.

So the colloidal silver is working well. I've been outbreak free for about 5 monthes now since my diagnoses. I got a boyfriend about a month and a half ago and we became sexually active pretty quick. As anyone would understand I didn't have the courage to tell him about my herpes. I've gotten more involve with him and I want to make a comitment to him. So today I di what I had to. I told him about it, and that i was sorry for not telling him earlier, but that this herpes makes me feel unloveable and i understand if you wouldn't want to be with me anymore. Of course I've been crying all day. His initial reaction was good though. Well first he thought it was a joke and then he got it that i was serious and was shocked but he said he still loved and still wanted to be with me for the rest of his lifesaying that i was the only thing he's ever really cared about. It's hard for me to believe though. So i'm waiting for him to think about for alil bit and soak it in. He'll break my heart if he leaves me and just prove my thought of being unloveable with this, but i'll understand his decision. It'll kill me inside and out though. I won't be ok for a very long time.