Finding out

Hi Everyone,

I've recently found out that I have genital herpes. Big shocker! I seriously wanted to die. I never thought something like this would ever happen to me. I thought I was careful in choosing who I was intimate with, but guess not. What will bother me is, I'll never know who gave it to me. Sucks! Anyway, I've only told two people. One a potential mate who may not be a potential mate anymore (lol) and the last person I had sex with without a condom and that was before I did my reading about herpes. I haven't told my best friend, probably never will or my family. Since it's still very new to me (like last week new), I find myself crying often a lot. I'm not really sure about this potential mate because I met him when I was waiting on results and I told him don't get attached just yet because you may not want me. Then I told him. We're still talking. He's saying his feelings haven't changed but he's angry at the situation, but I told him we'll have to sit down and educate ourselves together before things get serious between us because we met for a reason and that was looking for someone to love and grow with forever. I'm just tired of the crying and along with other with others, I wish this never happened to me...now what???

stunned and don't know what to do