Life is hard enough

so yes yesterday 7-2-2008, i was informed i have both types of herpes. I honestly cant stop crying. I have always been cautious and get my self check many times through the year. It sucks to know that someone did this to me and i may very well have done the same thing to someone else. to me the biggest thin that is hard to handle is hoping that your friends family and loved ones can understand. It also hurts to know that just when i feel my life can be happy something horrible happens. I have had many life effecting experiences. I was molested when i was a child, i was rapped on the night of my senior prom and now i have been diagnosed with herpes. For me it just makes me think what the hell could be next. Right now I feel so alone even thought i know so many have this. I feel like i will never be accepted. I feel like people will never look at me the same again and all because someone can protect them self by getting check normally. I feel so hurt that the boy i was dated cheated on me and i get punished along with him. I feel so sick, I cant eat sleep and cant look at anyone i care for without wanting to have a major breakdown of what they will say to me when i tell them. not only is it had enough without an STD to find a person that will love you for you, but now i will watch people i truly care about walk away from as i struggle to feel a sense of being wanted. i wonder what life will bring me next