I really don't know what that mean but I 'm in a situation just like you but the only difference i didn't have the virus he did and now I'm living with the STD and I've been feeling depressed, like no one cares about me anymore, I'm ugly and it hurts for me to feel that way I wish we never stop using condoms but i understand what you going through and I've only been living with it for a month and a couple of weeks