hello, i am not sure if you still check this site but i am in the exact same position as you where a year ago. I have 2 little girls under 2 one is 4.5month i had her naturally 2month later my first primary outbreak i am so blessed that this didnt happen in pregnancy or childbirth but i am struggling everyday with this knews. i constantly live in fear i will pass it on to them changing a nappy or something i also feel i am getting an outbreak often i am wondering if it's psychological. i too thought it was a uti or some complication with my 3rd degree tearing. any advice from you will be fantastic. thank you