I HAVE NOT BEEN HERE IN A VERY LONG TIME. SADLY DO TO BEING ILL AND I DECIDED TO SAY HELLO TO ALL. I TITELEDTHE TOP THAT WAY FROM CURIOSITY BECAUSE WHEN I FIRST BECAME ILL NOW THESE 19YRS AGO IT WAS ASTA LAVISTA BABY AND THAT HAS NEVER CHANGED BACK. FAMILY WENT ONE WAY AND THE "?FRIENDS?" WENT IN THE OTHER DIRECTION.:) I FOUND THINGS FROM WITHIN THAT CAME OUT WITH THE HELP OF A *NEW FRIEND* AND BEGAN A WHOLE NEW WAY OF LIVING. I FOUND OUT I HAD TALENTS WITHIN THAT WERE STORED UP JUST WAITING TO COME OUT AND SHOW THE WORLD WHAT THEY WERE MISSING ESPECIALLY ME . YOU ALSO MUST PUT ALL YOUR ANGERS ASIDE AND GO INTO YOUR NEW WORLD THAT IS JUST WAITING FOR YOU AND ALL YOUR NEW TALENTS.
I SOLD THINGS THAT I PAINTED. I SOLD THINGS I MADE WHEN I WENT INTO MY SMALL CERAMIC BUSINESS FOR AWHILE. I ONCE WENT INTO THE CHOCOLATE BUSINESS AND MADE MOLDED CHOCHOLATES AND DID A GOOD JOB SELLING THEM. I MADE FROM LOLLIPOPS TO LIFESIZE PANTHERS. WRITE ME AND DAY HELLO. BYE FOR NOW
dear sharon, i know i know i was and am fortunate to have the medical team i have my primary doc isnt afraid of meds, as i had a work up at out pain clinic
i struggle with depression but i am on the correct meds for that they work for me and the pain has calmed down, but friends? i was a highly train person in the medical field, i got sick cancer, and thepain has bee permenant i wish you lived here so many good pain specailist and havin physicians notify your hospital that if you come in , your not "drug seeking" they know what to do, its been so bad i have been admitted for rest, and pain relief, , the cancer was removed in 1997 yet the pain remained, i developed fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis, if i just bump into something my whole body is traumatied,yet i try to get outside of my self writing poetry, and i wrote to everyone who abandoned me when i no onger could drive due to pain and the meds,, i told them in plain but succint lanusage that will not allow them to call or be in contact, as i was abandoned during the cancer pell and i knew why, i was the mirror, and also inviting me for holidays and then being afraid that i will fall and sue them, my mum passed in 2008, my so called brother never believed her, lots of put downs, he is a control freak, her bone disease was so bad that she walked bone on bone refusing to have the surgery, diabetes and kidney failiure. he never lived away from her and cant do anything for himself, he is worth 1.2 mil, wont help me and tried to take my inheritance away from me based on disability, doesnt work, just becasue i cant hike, bike take 2 hour walks, doesnt mean the gray matter is gone, for 2 years now he has pressured me i almost broke but i refused , i am placing my moey in a protective trust, moving to another area, across lake washington, going back to school to pursue an art degree. he "brother" hates that i am doing for myself despite him and that my disability will be protected. i have been very lonely at times, it is as suddenly i am set apart, the chromic fatigue, thats called laziness by some, they dont et it but they will in 20 years or before when arthritis sets in husbands die,
when they find themselves like me thinking of things to do , thinking of things to say,finding that bottom line. I am sunshinegirl42@comcast.net write if you feel like it, some days i am too ill to move but i try and would love to write to you,
peace to you, sushinegirl