It's OK to be Imperfect

This SharePost really hit a nerve!  It was like someone was writing about my life.  I was the same way - had obsessive disorders that made me frustrated constantly.  I also would blame myself if I didn't get to do something "on my mental list" because I was exhausted.  I felt like a failure. People used to tell me that I was only 50 years old and why was I always so tired.

I too have now reset my priorities and go longer between flare ups.

Thank you Elizabeth for this and all of your SharePosts.

 How intersring that I come across your artical today. I do not come on to the site everyday, so what a surprise that this was here when I am doing the just what you said. I am gettting very upset with myself because my apartment (very small ) is not the way I would like it to be. The laundry is piled up and the dust is gathering. I think just get to and you will be done, you are not living the way you should things should be cleaner neater. I than try and tell myself it is not always like this and to give myself a break. I am going through a very big bad flare. I need to be more forgiving of myself, as we all do with this terriable illness.

 I tell myself you are trying very hard to stay out of the hospital and just live with what is going on in my world today. I so very much hear what you are saying and I do know deep inside that it will not be like this always. I am looking forward to the day ( very soon fingers crossed) that I can keep up a bit better with my house and laundry. So for now I have be happy with just keeping myself alive and out of the hospital.

With that being said may we all be a bit softer on ourselves and, do our meditaion and yoga keeping in mind the house can always be cleaned another time. If you go into the hospital over trying to keep up with it when we are in flares that seems a bit rediculus, doesn,t it.

As great as things are turning around for you not all of us can say that. I don't mean to sound awfull but when i found out i had crohns in april 2007 and i had just started a new job 4 days before i was put in the hospital well to sum it up no insurance then no job and alot of fear. I also like you have to have everything in line. No one has ever had to put me down i do that all on my own and no i have never been good enough in my mind. But now 10-08 i still have no job because when asked why i have been out of work and i tell the truth as soon as they here the word crohns i never here from them again . Working in the medical field the biggest part of my life its hard to hide crohns. And after crohns i am told i have fibro.,osteo.,ect..As far as the crohns the meds. have destroyed my skin and hair. So to have the problems as you know is one thing but to look like you aged 10yrs. in 1 1/2 yrs. does not help. I have tried some of the things you talked about and it does not help me because i want my life back. Yes i pray and thank god everyday for all he has done for me and that i am alive. My question for you is " how does people like me get their life back on track with all of this"? What about if you do get hired then the help you get for meds. will be cut off and 90 days when you get insurance the insurance co. can refuse to pay for a pre-existing cond.? How does a person make enough to pay the doctors and buy meds.? if just your meds. are around $900.00 a month. If you have any answers for me please let me know because i am sure there are alot of people like me out there. Thank You God Bless, Teresa