Told to were diapers by doctor

Thankyou for your words of advice ron i ame trying not to let it controle my life but it is hard knoing what i ame wering and the lingering fear that some one will notice tarifies me but i will try not to let it controle my life i ges that will tak time

I am not doing so great dealing with mine either.  I suffer from periods where I am OK and other times when I am so angery I don't know what to do. I have to constantly talk to people and I am so depressed. I wear pads because mine isn't as severe but it bugs me because I can't tell when  Ithink I have to go to the bathroom and I have severe spasms where my bladder feels like it wants to drain out but something isn't letting it, but what makes it worse is when I get on a toilet, I can push it out, but it wouldn't drain out on it's own.  This happened after I twisted a muscle somewhere.  I am suffering at work because these severe spasms and I wish sometimes they would take my bladder out so I can get back to work and put a bag on me so I can stop having these spasms.  I was diagnosed with having interstital cystis.  My doctors say this is what is going on with me, but I don't have the urgency to go to the bathroom or that filing causes me pain.

If you want someone to talk to, I would love to because I don't have anyone around me who is suffering with simular problems and I feel so alone.  I now have more supportive friends than I did that told me  just deal with it.  For me it is hard because of dating and going out meeting people How can I have a normal life when I know something like this affects people in the dating world?  I wish I was as insightful and strong  as all the others   on this website about how to accept it.  I sometimes think doctors are just copeout when it comes to this problem because they can fix a heart like they did for my mother who had a stroke, why can't they make a bladder work, or come up with ways to make it easier for others to live besides living with wearing protection.