I am a 36 year old female.  I have a daughter.  I had never had any problems with incontinency until about 5 years ago.  I am not sure exactly what happened because my urologist said that it couldn't happen that way.  I was laying on my bed and I got mad and punched myself in the stomache and then I think I hit my nerve in the spine because I felt a werid sensation and noticed that I lost feeling in some of my bladder.  I never went in at first because I thought it would go away.  I started a relationship with an abusive alcholic and stayed in the relationship because I felt I couldn't do anybetter.  One time he burnt me, he hit my daughter with a ball.  He did all these things while he was drunk and I stayed because I thought nobody would ever love me.  I feel for you because of what you have to go through.  The public seems not to realize that it is a medical issue.  The other night I wanted to commit sucide and the worst part is they still don't know what is going on with me.  My urologist said that if there was a rupture in the bladder it would have showed up and there was no rupture.  I am going to ask my primary physican to look into damage on the spine for the cause. When I gave birth to my daughter she was on my nerve and I felt shots of pain down my legs.  I have also hurt my tailbone from falling off a horse.  Maybe it is just because of the recurring accidents to the nerves. He put me on these meds Ditrol and it was great not having the leaking that I have reacted very differently than others.  At first it was great no leaking, feeling like I have to go the bathroom urge all the time. I don't have major leakage just small to medium amounts.  also am in the bathroom every 15 minutes somedays. That way I don't seem to have accidents. My daughter doesn't to care about it.  She seems to accept me as I am.  She had to deal with my father going through cancer and losing his voice so she is so great.  She seems to listen to my problems and have a better attitute about things than me.  I work at Walmart and I took time off to deal with all these issues.  It finally hit me that it may never go away and I have to deal with it.  I don't like being around alot of people before the problem so when I work there I get more stressed out causing more problems.  I want to thank you for writing this.  Hopefully I wouldn't do anything even more stupid because of my lack of confidence.  The biggest thing you realize going through this is when you talk to people about it they understand and don't laugh at you.  You have made me realize what is really important in my life.  My daughter needs me more than anything and I don't want to be without her.

david

3/14/08 10:08pm

hi melissa, thank you for reading my sharepost.you sound like a sweet girl,why would anyone want to hurt such a precious lady.i really feel sympathy for you malissa for the abuse you went through with your ex.no woman deserves that,i would never touch or hurt any woman for any reason.melissa i really feel what you are going through and if you need someone to talk to im here to help in any way.as for your mental and health conditions melissa, dont hurt yourself sweety life is to short and precious as it is besides if you feel your alone melissa im there to help ok.you said you work for wal-mart wow thats funny cause i work for a logistics company that supplies wal-mart with all their goods,small world aint it.melissa im serious if there is anything i can help you with i have a really caring heart sweety i would love to help you out in any way i can so take care and hope to hear back from you. bye for now