(I post most of the first section because honestly im afraid of being labeld a pedo just cause I wish i was 12 months old)
Ok so first I would like to point out that not only do I have genuine incontinence (complete) but im also an Adult Baby. Now I know alot of people think that being an adult baby is a sexual thing or linked to pedophilia, well for most Infantilists (the unbreler term that Adult Baby falls under) Pedophiles are people who are to be sought out and hung up by their balls, we activley work against them, reporting any pedophilic websites or activity we come across to the police. As for sexuality, around 86% of adult babies dont mix sexuality with playing the role play of being a baby. As for me I think sexuality is sick, im anti-sexual, that also means I think sex is gross. It is also worth pointing out that we do not pretend to be babies all the time, mostly we do this in private, at an Adult Baby Nusery or with a consenting Adult Partner (babies, toddlers and children are never brought in to Infantilism role play, Infantilism is an Adult only thing), though some like my self chose to dress in an imature way while out in public, this does not mean we go around in rompers and fotted sleepers holding teadies and sucking on dumies in public. Less then 1% of adult babies do that and they ushaly play the part of a baby 24/7. Aside from that we are adults that have jobs, familys, hobies, intrests, play sport, go to the pub, watch films, are maried, have romantic relationships and everything else a so called "Normal" person would do.
Now on to you.
Assuming you have read the above, you should know that aside from being an adult baby I have genuine incontinence problem wich has caused a total loss of bowl and bladder controal. Aside from the face that I accepted my condition quite esaly because of being an adult baby, wishing all my life since I was 7 that I was 1 year old and a baby again has tought me alought about regreshion.
There are many diffrent kinds or regreshion, Hypnotic Regreshion, Psycho Sematic Regreshion, Pathalogical Regreshion, Psychoemotive Regreshion and a few others wich I cant remember the technical names of the top of my head.
Im sorry to say this but Psycologists, Psychiatrists and counsilers dont know hardly anything about infantilism and society sees it as abnormal and because they dont understand it either they fear as well. So seeing a shrink wont help clarify what Im about to say.
You said you recently had two members of your imediate family that were close to you passaway, that is a traumatic event, you also said that the first time you wet was when you almost got ran over by a car, again nearly being run over by a car is also a very traumatic event, you wet at that point due to the Fight or Flight wich is a Psyco Sematic response, your brain automaticaly switched in to flight mode and emptied your bladder to make you lighter so that you could run faster, if you had needed to take a poo your bowls would have emptied as well at that point and for the same reason. The same thing would hapen to anyone in a moment of extreme fear once they had switched over to flight mode.
The fact that your wetting has continued and you are not aware of when you need to empty your bladder is a sign of Psycho Sematic Regreshion. This basicaly means that some part of your unconnshious mind is currently finding the world to much to cope with, and just as a 3 year old would regress at the birth of a new sibling, and would probibly eaven start regressing in potty training to, your Psycho Sematic Regreshion is causing you to wet. Im willing to bet you probibly had accidents as a child, this is no diffrent. Unless this regreshion continues and you begin to have problems with your bowls, or start finding yourself talking like a baby or child, or start spilling your food or drink down your front, then you have nothing to worry about. If it does continue, seek help from (and i hate to say it) either a Psychiatric hospital, or an Adult Baby Nusery, (a nusery will be much more comfortable and give you much more freedom then a mental hospital (i been in one 4 times) the down side to the nusery is they will charge you, but you will be able to customise how they treat you their so they wont nesiceraly treat you like a baby if you dont want them to (im assuming you dont want to be treated like a baby) but also compere the nusery to a nut house, in places like psych hospitals the staff basicaly do what they like, and dont belive a word you say, they put you to the floor and beat you when ever they want and you cant do a thing about it, a nusery you are in total controal and since you will not know how long this regreshion lasts till its run its course it could be a safe place, and less embarising then asking a close friend or family member to look after you or change you, what if you loose the ability to walk ?)
I doubt the regreshion will go that far but, it will most likley stay limited to wetting and a child like iratibility.
On the other hand if you are aware of when your bladder needs to empty then this is called Psychemotive Regreshion, it differs from Psycho Sematic Regreshion because Psyco Sematic Regreshion is involentry, Psycoemotive Regreshion is not, but both are caused by high levels of stress and traumatic events, as is the case with most forms of Regreshion. Psychoemotive Regreshion Is the technical name for a form of Regreshion I go through when I Regress back to being 12 months old, anyone can do it, if the minds desire to be a certain age is strong enough. You have to want to be a certain age to undergo Psychoemotive Regreshion and you have to feel that you are that age to. If this is the case then the treatment is simple. Assuming you know what age you whant to be, set asside some private time (prehaps take a holiday of work), you know what it feels like to be the age you want to be because you have already undergone Psychoemotive Regreshion, remember what if feels like to be that age as you go about your daily routine, its up to you weather you wear a diaper or not, but i can tell you they are not as bad as society makes them out to be, you wet in a disposable and they stay warm were as you wet in a cloth and they will get cold and leek if you dont wear plastic pants, as for pooping in a diaper, well this might be the aspergers talking or just because I preceptulise things diffrently because im on the autistic spectrum, but not only will a disposable keep urine warm it keeps poop warm to, cloth does not, infact I dont really have a problem with having to poop in a diaper, most people say poop stinks, i would disagree with that, I tend to asocciate the smell of poop with food like eggs or curry, I just dont like the look of it. Not that you would need to poop in your diaper if you chose to wear one, its just every time you untape a diaper you make it less leak proof, as for sitting in poop, (if thats what your worried about), I suggest you mash 6 bananas up and warm them up in the microwave, then you could either put a diaper on and put the mash the back of your diaper and sit on it, (a practice among infantilists known as diaper stuffing, mixing / mashing food stufs together to simulate a poop texture (food colering is sometimes used to simulate colour) then heating it in a microwave (not to long) and putting it in the back of your diaper) I must say I never tried it, but bassicaly the feeling of sitting in a poopy diaper is, warmth, can be slimey, mushy, gooey, hard (if your constipated), runny(if you got the runs), anoying(if your in public) or if you dont change soon it can sting and that is either from spicy food or diaper rash. as for wetting a diaper most good brands of diapers will hold at leat 3 good soakings.
If you choose to wear a diaper wear it while going about your daily routine, this will help you feel the age that you want to be, keep in the front of your mind memories (if you can remember any) of things you did at that age, of other babies, toddlers, children or teenagers that are that age you want to be (im assuming you know i mean with cloths on), take note of their behaviours and the sounds they make, when you and your sub conchous mind are both ready you will feel yourself becoming that age, and you can use this time to do what ever you want, just know you can become this age when ever you feel the need to, but in society you are viewed as an adult and expexcted to behave as an adult, wich means no wet panties.
You can become the littile girl, toddler or baby inside of you when ever you want as long as you do it in private.
If you are aware of your bladder emptying but have no sensation of your bladder filling or the need to go, this is a physical thing called flacid bladder, basicaly it means that your bladder is stretched to much, you should do kegal exercises twice daily for at least 3 months and you will notice a diffrence, also the minite you notice the sensation that you need to urinate you should go to the toilet.
I hope this helps
