what a joke

well iwent yesterday for my MRI and neurologist appt.

as expected the MRI was normal.......... but the neurologist who i thought might actually help me turned out to be a joke.

he had a med student with him, and she was 10 times worse than he ever dard to be. he told her i had no known triggers... WHAT??? dude i told you at the frist appointment of at least 25. and those were just the ones i knew off the top of my head. i've done the elemination diet...... still in agony. keep taking you little preventative pills that are taking what little life i have left. and all he wants to do is up the dosages. just because aamatriptyline worked for 7 years 11 years ago doesn't mean that it will work now. and i've been on topamax for over 2 years now with NO relief!

i refuse to go back, and told my husband as much on the way home. hubby's response..... there is nothing wrong with you. my jaw nearly hit the floor.

so since my job could care less... and obviously my husband could care less, i have come to the conclusion that there isn't much point in fighting it anymore. i'll keep swallowing these pills, and drag to work no matter how sick i am. and then when something gets messed up.... well just fire me! as according to everyone around me it's all in my head!