Im not this person who is sad all the time

I dont mean to cancel out at the last minute

I used to be happy with life in general

But somedays Im barely in it

Im not trying to complain all the time

I still try to wear a smile

I dont like to feel and be down

Although I know its been that way now for awhile

I dont really know what happened to me

Im not sure when I lost my soul

I wonder sometimes just how it happened

I wonder how I lost all control

This thing that now "defines" me

Has taken over my thoughts and my mind

Has somehow crept into my 'being'

And done damage over time

I fight a war that has no origin

No battle plan or end in sight

I Know this is now who I am inside

I am made of so much more

I may sometimes question why

But its my life that I keep fighting for

DMC

3-24-10