Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Ugh, why doesnt anyone believe me??

I went to a headache specialist on 4/9/08 associated with NY Presbyterian---it was the biggest waste of time. She sat on her PC a majority of the time documenting what I told her, criticized my allergies to medications, & didnt believe my food allergens (kind ofmocked them! saying '..how can u be allergic to fruit?') did a basic neurotest and when I asked her about my swollen lymph nodes she told me that wasnt her area of practice and to ask my PCP! Any other medical question I asked her she said 'ask your PCP'. She then asked me what I take for break through pain--i said im allergic to narcotics, and i get cardiac palps/chest pain from triptans--what does she give me?? a TRIPTAN. and then at the end o f the "visit" she gave me a print out of everything i told her and told me to make an appt with me PCP. Can we say waste of time? Blink  

 

Today I go to the hospital with a SEVERE migraine to the point I couldnt stand it anymore I didnt know what to do. They gave me reglan & toradol, and the drs looked at me and basically didnt believe anything i said. i told them about my pain and they said well u dont look like ure in pain. i hate how ppl look at me and think im fine. i cant stand it! i feel like i should take drama classes and learn to cry on que so that ppl could believe my pain! they said 'well u dont look like you're...well you look fine to me'. ...has anyone else experienced this so the degree i have!?Cry

 

and to make matters worse--i called out of work sick today. im already skating on thin ice because of it. and im still not feeling that much better what do i do!?!??! i cant get fired but i am getting the wrath from my supervisors which makes me so stressed which i think is inducing headaches also!Embarassed is that legal to be yelled at for calling out sick for a diagnosed illness that you have had for years??? i feel like im being taken advantaged here and that they just want to get rid of me (aka they want me to quit). i dont call out that often...maybe 1x every 6 weeks which considering the fact im in constant pain and work 40 hours a week is a miracle....any advice? I need ALL the help I can get from you loves Heart

4/15/08 3:40pm

you actually just described the last few weeks of my life. i have many food and drug allergies. and have seen several doctors who could care less. my PCP though is a different story.. he is wonderful.

 

my job has actually thrreatened my job!!! hello people... didn't the doctors note say stress just makes it easier for me to get a stinking mirgaine.

 

oh and i can go to the ER with a pain level of 8 out of 10 and appear healthy...... why?? because my pain has to be over a 5 for me to even say my head hurts. ( i have a high tolerance for pain............. 23 year with these boogers makes me that way!)

4/15/08 6:08pm

exactly! i told the ER i had 8/10 pain n they smirked and said that i looked fine. i just feel so helpless. im happy i am able to work as much as i can, but at the same time i struggle to work as much as i do and im sure my performance is not as great as it is on better days. i just have no idea what to do. im terribly afraid being told im out of a job due to illness, but at the same time i have a drs note excusing my absence from work --- but they have threatened my job before. i just dont feel that is right. is it illegal for them to fire me if i have a drs note excusing my absence? Huh? feedback anyone?

 

p.s.--ive already interviewed w/another company, n i got a 2nd interview. i just cannot take the negativism from my supervisors anymore. i need a place that will support me. as this is/was my first place of employment, hopefully my next one will be better...or maybe im just being naive..Unsure

4/16/08 7:40am

it really depends on your states laws about employment. i know in my state they can, but i can make it really hard for them .

 

my store manager is going to bat for me with home office, as is my doctor. and as i sit here now i think i have strep throat, but don't want to go to the doctor to find out as that means another missed day from work.

 

all things considered i am pretty lucky with my headaches. i can usually identify a trigger. once in a great while i will have one with no real cause. but i keep detailed diaries of what i eat, brands and ingrediant lists. and i take it with me to the doctor. my doctor said he's never seen someone so dertermined to beat this. i don't know about beating it, but i refuse to let it define who i am and how i will live my life.

4/27/08 8:23pm

so my job gave me the ax on friday. i still work for my company, but not for my dept. they told me that my performance was lacking and basically pranced around my health status. im taking a medical leave of absence and will see what happens in 2 weeks. my job was stressing me out, so hopefully it will be a blessing in disguise. dunno what im going to do, but im looking at this ax in a positive way. haha--well positive in every aspect except financially.

 

best wishes & health to all.

 

 

xoxoSmile

6/ 9/08 2:25am

i returned to work on a medsurge floor, which is heavy duty but for some reason i am doing much better than i was in the OR Sealed. i am not stressing over the fact that i may be fired bc of my health status which helps a lot. i am still working 40 hours a week but only 3 days a week instead of 5. i am enjoying my job now, and i just recently realized i hated my previous position and it was making me more sick. i still get migraines and headaches 3-5x week(better than the 6-7 i was getting) Yellbut not as often as i was. my medical leave of absence was MUCH needed and appreciatedInnocent. i went to the spa 2x and overall just relaxed. i wish i could do it again, but this is the real world. thanks for all your help, and for listening.

 

talk to you all soon!

 

good health!Laughing