Disability retirement

SusieB is in pain and trying to rest. Living With It I have had migraines since I was probably 15, but they were monthly... Send Message Subscribe: SusieB

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Since December 2008, I have been going through the process of asking for disability retirement where I work because chronic headache and two or more migraines a week have been my daily norm. Management did not want my position made part-time back when I asked in the summer of 2008 beca...

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Hi SusieB
Lisa
Monday, November 02, 2009 at 11:48 AM

I know exactly how you feel about the job and the morning. The mornings are still the worst for me. I was fired from my job due to my migraine treatments. I worked there for almost 7 years and I feel the same about feeling like I accomplished something with my job but as with you, it just wasn't possible anymore. I am glad you have been able to receive disability retirement but I understand the bittersweet feelings you have and the long journey you have had to take. I hope things go well for you and you have less migraines now that you can maybe sleep later and truely take care of yourself....which many employers make difficult at best. Good luck to you!

Lisa

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SusieB
Monday, November 02, 2009 at 06:53 PM

Thank you, Lisa. Yes, I wish there were more office jobs in evening. I'm sorry that you were fired though for something you have no control over. That is sad to hear.

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Nancy Harris Bonk
Monday, November 02, 2009 at 08:04 PM

I wasn't sure what I expected to feel when I was awarded SSDI, but it certainly wasn't elation. There were many mixed emotions, all them "normal" and quite acceptable.

Have you seen my SharePost on this topic? Take a look when you get a chance: My Social Security Disability Journey.

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SusieB
Monday, November 02, 2009 at 09:46 PM

I did read your post, Nancy, but it helped to read it again because I think I understand the feelings I'm having. My family expected much from me. They taught me to have a strong work ethic. I have a master's and am paying on a huge loan debt, which bothers me to no end since I'm not sure how I'll pay it back. I said aloud to myself yesterday while watching an add for a local college, "A lot of good those degrees are doing me now." Very negative, angry thoughts. My husband is trying to work and go to school now. It just adds to my feelings of guilt and that I'm a burden. I'm working on shutting those thoughts off though. That's my coping strategy that I learned in therapy. I say, "Stop," and let the thought go since I'm quite a ruminator. I'm trying to replace those with positive thoughts, and I do feel better today.