OK everyone, I had my nerve block this past Monday. The pain specialist was really, really nice, and is working in conjunction with my neurologist. I loved having part of my neck numb for a little while. Now it's just really sore, and migraines are as usual. So, unfortunately, it doesn't seem to be working (yet), but I remain hopeful that maybe the steroid part of it just hasn't "kicked in" just yet.
What's happened since I posted last is my back! I had a fusion (1999)after my car wreck(1998), I think in L3-4, maybe L4-5. OK, so I was goofing around with my 8 yr old last week, and felt a SCREEAAMING pain on the left lower side of my back, which over a couple of days was radiating down my left leg. Had an MRI 2 days ago, & they gave me the CD of the pics they took,but I cannot figure out how to retrieve the images! Anyhow, something I've done, and I don't know what, some way I've moved or something, has made my right leg start (especially the outside of my calf) hurting too, and I DREAD going to the bathroom. Just sitting down on the hard seat that is low is difficult, but I can't seem to get it all out without really bearing down, which is SUPER painful!
To add to my back & head, the kids go on Spring break starting tonight, and I feel so inadequate as a mom. I feel guilty for everything right now, and I'm just having a brutal time even opening the fridge, let alone trying to cook, or...ANYTHING!
I wish a magical fairy would appear with a home for me to have, give me enough income so my children wouldn't feel badly about accepting even lunch money,-and pay for car & health care expenses ,she would erase my bills, fix my teeth and jaw, cover whatever back/neck/jaw/surgeries I need, she would grant me a cook and a maid to help me. In other words, all I would have to focus on are my children (while they still live at home)and trying to heal my head (& my back now, too).
I think inherently disability pay is supposed to assist in these things, but the financial assistance is so poor that the quality of life for those of us who are left to live on it and raise children and try to heal/cope with our illness(es), leaves many of us quite anxious (which triggers my migraines!)about so many serious issues that it doesn't promote an environment conducive to positive thinking nor uncluttered healing(do we ever REALLY heal from migraines, anyway???).
So, instead of fantasizing about my little fairy, I'll try and continue coping with just one issue at a time. It's so hard, though.
CJ
