The bus pulls up, and drops me off,
and I run home fast to bury my head
on that pillow, that was alway so soft.
Was I the only one in school that felt this invisible pain?
This pain that throbbed throughout my head,
and sometimes made me rather be dead.
Why should someone so young have to deal,
with a pain so large, no one else had to feel.
This throb just followed me as an adult
and interfered with life,
keeping me the farthest from exult.
It was never fun being on the fence,
about going out, and having fun.
Oh what terrible suspense.
My friends alway knew me as the girl with the migraine.
That was so lame.
So many doctors, and so many tests.
Drugs and experiments,
oh please, what's next?
When the pain is so bad, pounding pounding through your head.
When you are trying to drive home from work,
and the lights from the opposing cars make your eyes just hurt.
When the slightest sound makes you want to scream,
and the vomiting won't stop, you wishing this was all just a bad dream.
Then you begin to mix, a ridiculous amount of drugs praying for that desperate fix.
Please fix this pain, and make it go away,
I can't do this another day.
But another day comes, and we learn we are the ones
The ones with that high pain threshold,
who have the strength to deal with things as we get old.
Cause only people who have been through this hell,
could possibly put up with any other challenge there is to tell.
And then there is this euphoria.
This moment when the pain finally subsides,
and we say "ah", as there is there great feeling inside.
This feeling of relief, that is to our disbelief.
As I thought it would never end,
this monstrous headache that tested me again.
But in this moment, day or week
that this headache goes far away from me,
I appreciate life, the little things so much,
an appreciation no one else could touch.
I just pray for another pain free day,
and until then,
I'm ok.
i take Topamax to ward them off and Relpax when they come on and it has been the biggest blessing in the world. The Topamax has helped with the chronic back pain (spinal fusion when I was 14) to such an extreme I have cut back on all my meds and the Relpax has always been a lift saver but was taking too many to they added the Topamax to stop them before they start.
Speak up - I did which is why I am on these meds now. The doctors didn't put me on them by their own free will. I used my voice and spoke up. LOUDLY. I know they make migraine meds. Many of them. If one doesn't work - get another. You must been your own advocate. Do your own research. Don't rely on doctors - rely on yourself.
Best wishes to you.
Gotta love the "unexpected side effects!" Pain management was my side effect of the Topamax! Blessings in disguise! I've been battling that for 25 years - been told I'm a helpless case, expect to be in a wheelchair, etc. (nice to hear from a Dr. "Sorry, nothing we can do. You'll be a wheelchair when you get older so enjoy yourself now.")