I am really have a hard time with this autoimmune business. I am not playing the "why me" card, just kind of not believing the whole thing. Isn't that called denial? I wonder how long it takes to accept news like this?
A wise women, a breast cancer survivor, told me recently that having a chronic illness can be worse than cancer. With cancer she said there is always an end, one of two ways. Remission or death. She certainly got right to the point. Chronic illness has no end. In 2 years, or 5 years you still have your illness - no end. I know she was trying to make me feel better but I think the reality of my situation finally hit home. Lupus and MG are for the rest of my life. That kinda of stinks. So if I keep ignoring them, will they go away??? Doubtful, uh?
On a more upbeat note I did make my husband get our exercise bike back from his parents house and I have begun to ride it every day. Yes, everyday. I am starting out slowly and who knows I might even start to like exercise......
Those are my thoughts for now.....I'll fill you in when I can. Thanks for reading.
Published On: March 01, 2007