"Buck It Up"
My Neuro (PA-C) said that to me. When I told her how it was to exercise while I was still having 3.5-5 headaches, she told me to "Buck it up". I was very upset about it and still seethe about it. I usually let things go, but I can't let this go. My primary doc tells me to get out more, work through the pain. It is like they think I am in a balloon and all I need to do is push a little bit and I can just "pop" through it and I will suddenly be totally able to function perfectly.
But my balloon is not made of that thin rubber that will break at the least pressure. Mine is made from that stuff that is used to make steel-belted radial tires. I push my balloon to its limit and when I go to far, I get thrown back and bounce around and have an accelerated headache for show for it.
I am glad that I push my limits and go out and do things, but no one seems to understand the price I pay. If they see me out, they assume I am "cured". For example, church on Sunday. This past Sunday was the semi-annual baby dedication day. They haven't done one in a while, so Bella was included in this group. I usually avoid the AM service because the light and sounds and crowds are a big trigger, but this was special. So, I went, ate out after, and went to Lifegroup that evening. I had a Dr appt yesterday followed by a meeting to get a new CPAP mask. By the time I got home yesterday, my head was throbbing. I had to eat and take my afternoon meds, but then it was straight to bed. I slept for a couple of hours and then my daughter and granddaughter came over to watch a show on Nat'l Geographic. I got up and watched it with them, but as soon as they left, it was back to bed and I have been in bed all day. I think part of today's headache is getting used to the mask.
Well, at least the rest of the week looks to be quiet.