hopeless and lost

after suffering with migraines for about 7 years. The last 2 have been the worst I have migraines 3-4 maybe even 5 times a week. I started to see a new internal medince doctoe with the hopes they could help me.

I have been on just about every med possible. I am at the end of my rope. After seeing the new doctor she tells me that I have been misdiagnosed all these years because of all the migraine medince I have tried that haven't worked. She sent me to a therapist to get a new diagnoses who in returns tells her that I am a normal person. I just need a pain medication to control my migraines.

I have even seen a MD to make sure I have migraines and nothing else is wrong with me. The therapist writes a note to the doctor asking for pain medication to control my migraines while I wait to see the 2nd nero doctor. She refused so the therapist sends me to a urgetn car clinic asking for the same thing a script to get me through which I was denied. I have been to the ER 3 times in the last two weeks with a extreme migraines vomiting and nothing.

The MD want me to go to a headache clinic that I don't think my military insurance is going to cover. I live with migraines and a pressure in my head that never goes away. IT seems no one wants to help me and I at lost as to what to do since I have tried everything from Depkote to topamax to antidepressant. the only thing that I have found that helps is a shot of dlaudid, but I feel like if I continue to go to the ER the are going to start thinking I am just drug seeking.

Am I the only one that all these meds have not worked for cause right now I feel so alone. I am in pain all the time which cause problems in my home because I am moody because of the pain and the lack of help the doctor will give me. It feels as if my migraines are in control of my life now and not me. When  they put me on all the depressant I hated it because I didn't feel depressed, but now I feel like my migraines are making me that way. I feel like no one believes the invisible pain they can't see or feel. i don't know where to go or what to do anymore!

Thanks for listening to me vent!