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Health Interests

Help the suffering,  and let them know what pain is really like!

Drugs I am Taking

Morphine,  Adderall,  Clonazepam,  O2,  possibly mushrooms next.

About Me

I am a 43 year old who has suffered from something much worse than migraines all my life...Cluster Headaches!!!! And the Beast is Back worse than ever! Traveled most of my younger years, living in the subtropics, the Pacific Northwest, followed the Grateful Dead around a couple decades, worked as a graphic artist/writer/IT for about 20 years. Finally settled down around 31, got married, moved to Oregon, studied Zen/Engaged Buddhism/Mindfulness and Political Sociology (Corruption, flaws, discrimination, class struggle/division, hunger/poverty, etc. in a capitalist society). Besides Clusters, I suffer from Bi-polar disorder, severe back problems and more I won't get into. Two years ago my life went straight to hell, I went into hiding for 2 years and nearly drank myself to death, then one day it was do or die. I decided to "do." Now I'm starting over at 43 with a broken down body and my Clusters came back two weeks ago (had 3 tonight so far), but trying to keep positive by practicing Buddhism again, and joining chat groups to share my experiences, what I've learned from them, what I'm doing now, and do what I can to help others by listening, offering advise when asked for it, and water the positive seeds in myself and others. Just to live is to suffer. That's what it's all about. That's the nuture side of it. Then, one top of that, you have nature (your environment) that brings about conflict. That's why being mindful, living in the moment, practicing metta (loving-kindness), avoid the negatives i.e. greed, hatred, anger, envy etc. is so crucial to relieve the suffering of yourself and every living thing. So, although I've been through hell and have to start over, I've decided, after losing everything and getting caught in a phase of alcohol soft middle age, I'm NEVER going to get caught up with the elites feeding global corporation claws, think negative thoughts about anything or anybody no matter what they did or do (maybe with the exception of George W. Bush), and just live the rest of my life helping people.