perpetually now

Perpetually now

This Pain -

It wipes out my past, my future

All but the searing now.

I close my eyes against the ruthless sun

But that Beast inside my head

He does not relent

What is this Pain?

It burns across my temple

It sears behind my eyes

Boring into my skull

Throbbing as I stand up

Nauseated

I bite my tongue as the bile rises in my throat
(Not again)

But never

I never vomit

Maybe if I did

(Just once)

The Migraine would quit.

Every morning, before my first thought is formed

It is there

The Pain

The Migraine

That dreaded Beast

Before thought

Before consciousness, is the Beast, the Pain

And I lay there, eyes closed

Defeated

What would it be like to wake up

Without

The ropes of this Pain?

I'm bound to this perpetual now,

This twilight of no past and no future

Living hyper-aware of the present

The Pain

Yet

I store away

In the dusty corner of my soul

A small glimmer of hope for that day

That I will be free of

This dreaded Beast, and can

Watch the sunset.