Saturday, February 11, 2012

The Juggling Migraineur

I'm the juggling migraineur.

I will keep all of the balls in the air.

I will not give in.

I will not disappoint!

I will smile, and laugh, and say things like "Good!" and "OK."

I will swallow my pills when no one is looking.

I will throw up when no one is around.

This will be the best show ever!

 

I can cook, hold ice on my head, and breathe through my mouth all at once.

I can help the kids with homework, do the laundry, and throw up every 5 minutes without collapsing.

I can clean my entire bathroom while holding my breath.

I can read an entire chapter book with my son while holding a heating pad over my head.

The show will be amazing!

 

I will make sure my son has his extra credit work done!

His teacher will never know I had to hold my head in both hands the entire time.

I will make healthy food!

My kids will have friends visit our house!

The show will be SPECTACULAR!

 

I will keep all of my commitments.

I will be the nice, outgoing, neighbor and friend.

I will be the volunteer everyone can count on.

I will smile warmly to my kids and talk with my husband, even when I feel like my head is going to split in two.

I will be the person I want to be...the person who doesn't have pain....the person I always imagined I would be when I grew up.

The show must go on!

 

Only those closest to me will know the real story.

The kids will know the "migraine look" on my face.

My husband will see that I'm not eating again.

They'll watch sadly as  the balls slip through my fingers.

They'll try to help, but it's my show--not theirs--to complete.

 

Sometimes the balls just come tumbling down.

But I will pick them up again.

The show must go on...

 

Heart jenny

3/ 4/08 8:53pm
Thank you for your share posts. I don't know how moms (and dads) with migraines do it. You guys are truly super heros.
3/ 8/08 11:40pm

I would like to start by saying that I frequently visit migraine sites in search of additional information that might offer more help and relief from my migraines, and I almost never post.  However, your post of "The Juggling Migraineur" hit so close to home that it made me cry as I read it (and I am not a cryer).  This is the first time that I have truly felt like someone understands my life and why I must do everything I do.  Sometimes I feel like people think I am faking a headache or migraine, because even when I have a migraine I will try so hard to care for my family.  Many people think that if you are that sick then why aren't you in bed.  With my husband, son, and full-time teenage stepchildren in my constant thoughts I could never spend that much time in bed.  I have pushed myself so far, that my husband has had to take me to the doctors office for shots several times.  Even been sent to ER from the doctors office due to dehydration from migraine and vomiting.  I always worry that these trips might upset them, so I try desperately not to show how much pain I am in.  My migraines have plagued me for as long as I can remember.  However, after the birth of my son 7 years ago, they have increased in frequency and pain.  I am now 36 years old and hormone changes seem to be playing a big part in this.  I am seeing a neurologist who specializes in migraines now and I am hopeful that his treatment will help decrease my migraines.  I would like to enjoy my family without always having to mask or function thru the pain. Until then I am going to invite all those who question my choices of struggle thru the migraines so I can be the facilitator my family needs to read "The Juggling Migraineur".

 

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