The Juggling Migraineur

I'm the juggling migraineur.

I will keep all of the balls in the air.

I will not give in.

I will not disappoint!

I will smile, and laugh, and say things like "Good!" and "OK."

I will swallow my pills when no one is looking.

I will throw up when no one is around.

This will be the best show ever!

I can cook, hold ice on my head, and breathe through my mouth all at once.

I can help the kids with homework, do the laundry, and throw up every 5 minutes without collapsing.

I can clean my entire bathroom while holding my breath.

I can read an entire chapter book with my son while holding a heating pad over my head.

The show will be amazing!

I will make sure my son has his extra credit work done!

His teacher will never know I had to hold my head in both hands the entire time.

I will make healthy food!

My kids will have friends visit our house!

The show will be SPECTACULAR!

I will keep all of my commitments.

I will be the nice, outgoing, neighbor and friend.

I will be the volunteer everyone can count on.

I will smile warmly to my kids and talk with my husband, even when I feel like my head is going to split in two.

I will be the person I want to be...the person who doesn't have pain....the person I always imagined I would be when I grew up.

The show must go on!

Only those closest to me will know the real story.

The kids will know the "migraine look" on my face.

My husband will see that I'm not eating again.

They'll watch sadly as  the balls slip through my fingers.

They'll try to help, but it's my show--not theirs--to complete.

Sometimes the balls just come tumbling down.

But I will pick them up again.

The show must go on...

jenny