Hope and the "real me"

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jennyc

Mon, June 02, 2008

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I can feel the "real me."

The one that isn't sick from medication side effects.

The one that is well, energetic, and positive.

The one that laughs easily and offers help to friends without hesitation.

The "me" I know I am, deep inside.

The "me" that follows my heart, doing what feels right rather than weighing costs and benefits...

I feel optimistic when these moments come!

Sometimes I even find myself believing that the migraines won't return...

It'd be a different world, a different life for me without this head pain and nausea.

I know my migraines will not just miraculously disappear.

I won't waste time with that fantasy!

But moments of hope are very important.

Moments like these give me the strength to keep working with my doctor, trying new meds, following new treatment plans.

There is a difference between hope and fantasy.

For me, fantasy is wasted energy.

Hope is the path back to the "real me."

jenny

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Ken

6/ 5/08 11:26am

Well said, there are many others out there that feel much like you do, don't give up and keep searching!

Kelly, FlywithHope

6/ 5/08 12:46pm

I know what you are talking about, Jenny. The hope keeps me going too. And I cherish those moments. Keep up that hope!

Love and hugs,

Kelly, flywithhope

Sherry

6/ 5/08 4:51pm

Jenny,

Thank you for sharing this. It really hit home with me - I even cried when I read it. I have some hopeful days,too, but they seem to be getting farther apart. I hope things are getting better for you!

Sherry

debba

6/ 6/08 3:02am

I just sign up for this forum, I just read the post before, but now feel ready to share my life of pain.

Jenni you speak from the heart and I cryed alot when I was reading your post. I have printed it off and will keep in with me to remind me I 'm not the only one feeling this way. thanks for sharing it with the forum. It made me cry and I feel better now.

thanks Debba

utbrat

7/ 3/08 4:13pm

Jenni-Thank you for putting into words the battle so many of us struggle with. I sent your words to my family so that they would have a better understanding of where I live (since you captured it so well). Like you, I try to be hopeful, although, some days are harder than others. I wish you as many pain free days as possible. Lisa

Hanging On

7/ 8/08 12:25pm

Wow! You should have that poem published! You expressed so eloquently what I am going through. Thanks for sharing.