Guilt washes through me

Coloring my world

with sadness and grief

Just let me lay here

while you play with your toys

Use your indoor voice

Don't make any noise

Mommy's head hurts

Guilt washes through me

Painting my life in shades

of black and grey

Another game I've missed

Go on without me

go play, take your glove

Tell me what you've seen

Mommy's head hurts

Guilt washes through me

In swaths of anger

pain and helplessness

Let me hold you

And cradle your head

You should be happy

Not dealing with this instead

My baby's head hurts

Giult washes through me

In wave, in waves

of terrible pain

How could this happen?

What did I do?

Were my genes that bad?

Did I give this to you?

My baby's head hurts.