Frustrated, In Pain and Exhausted...

  Posted document.write(''+ myTimeZone('Wed, 12 Mar 2008 00:00:11 GMT-0700', '03-12-2008 12:00 AM')+''); 03-12-2008 12:00 AM I always feel like I am defending myself to my My Nurse Practioner (my Neurologist only can see me once a year...so I get stuck seeing the NP) I see her every month and I keep a migraine diary. It is SO frustrating to explain everything to her and then she doesn't even remember 2 days later. Isn't it her job to write everything down and remember??!!!

I called last week to tell her I was tested for influenza and I ended up having it. She didn't want me to come to my appt. because I would just be spreading my illness....plus I was super sick. Anyway, when I talked to her today about the migraine I got last night, she asked why I wasn't at my appt. last week. I told her because of influenza...remember??? She then asked me how I got better so fast....what did she think I was lying about the flu??!! I was sick a week before I was diagnosed and it's almost another week since I was diagnosed (2 weeks!!) I'm much better but I still have the cough. Why do I have to defend myself to her? I am an honest person!

I am still waiting for the Keppra to kick in and I can't take triptans because of my risk of stroke. I also take atenolol and celexa. I take every prophylaxis meds they ask me to take. Why do they make me feel like a drug-seeker when I need pain meds??!! If I'm doing everything they want me to do...and I still have EXTREME pain...am I supposed to just live with it?! I had visual aura, numb face, weak hand and confusion yesterday...the pain came later and it was as bad as it gets. I took the butalbital and Naproxen and it did not work. That is why I called the next morning. I wanted to know what I should do. She told me that a patient was waitng for her and she had already wasted too much time talking to me. She then wrote a prescription for 20 percocet and told me someone had to pick it up. My sister did....and the NP was very upset and said that it looked like I had taken this before. She also said that I needed preventative drugs to work. I realize this...that's why I am on keppra, atenolol andd celexa. I did take percocet before. It was 8 years ago when I delivered my second child and she was 10 pounds 1 ounce. I was given 3 doses in the hospital and sent home with some pills in a bottle. I never even took those pills...they expired and I actually found them way back in my cupboard about 4 years ago and threw them away. If I told my NP this....she probably wouldn't believe me. WHY? I am completely telling the truth.

Two years ago I was given an MRI/MRA. I was given 10 mg of valium because I was so scared to go in the tube. I almost didn't make it through the test....but I prayed and prayed and just made it without having a panic attack. That was the 1st time I EVER had valium and it didn't seem to make me calm down. I told my NP this and she said it was probably because I had taken it a lot and built up a tolerance to it. I told her I had never taken it...not even once, prior to that MRI. She just looked at me like...yeah right! WHY??