This is not the life I signed up for! My husband & children didn't either!

My name is Stacey and  I am 41 years old.  I live near Richmond, Virginia.

I have been living with migraine since late childhood.  My attacks have been getting more frequent and longer for the past couple of years.  I was recently diagnosed with "Refractory Migraines", meaning they don't respond to treatment.  My new neurology doctor admitted me to the hospital for IV Treatment with DHE45.  I was in the hospital for 5 days.  They have become worse since I was adminitted on 11/21/08.  I finally heard back from the doctor's nurse today and the doctor thinks that he has tried almost everything that can be tried.  He will try to see if I qualify for Botox and get back to me.  Basically left me with no hope for improvement. 

I know that migraines and depression often go hand in hand.  Which comes first? For me, the depression comes during these long days and nights of pain.  Times when you can't think a clear thought; times when you are stripped of all dignity; stripped of even hope. 

Now between trying to function at work, deal with the pain, I will be doing research again.  Looking for a ray of hope; looking for some new treatment; and yes for a new doctor. 

If not for my wonderful husband and supportive kids, I think I would be crazy by now.   

Thanks for taking the time to read my first ever public post/blog.  I will appreciate any and all responses, suggestions and referrals.