Tuesday, August 10, 2010
The past few days have been terrible. I wanna cry but it would only make it worse! The throbbing and light sensitivity is killer. Meds aren't helping! I can normally deal with this much better. I have at least 2 migraines a week. You think I would be able to deal with it better. I have been hateful to everyone about everything. This has got to end soon.I hate going to the ER because they always look at me like I'm a junky looking for a fix. I can't take this much more right now.
I, unfortunately, have been having "that kind of week", too. The pain and light sensitivity do get somewhat better and then it worsens again. The only true relief is sleep, so that's mostly what I'm trying to do. I know what you mean about the crying, it just makes my head pound more, but I just can't hold it in sometimes. The kicker is that up until about 10 days ago, I was having the best summer I've had in a very long time, so I am grateful for that, but it makes me a bit angry that this is happening now! I cry more for the disruption of my life than for the pain. I just feel like such a mess when this happens. It hard to think and even when the pain is somewhat relieved, my brain just doesn't seem to be normal.. The confusion, loss of equillibrium and just struggling to put thoughts into words, or keep a train of thought, can all be very frustrating. I am a woman of faith and that helps me to get through. I just keep telling myself: It can't last forever! Please know that you are not alone...I don't know if that helps, but I feel much empathy for you. Hang in there!!