If this migraine cycle doesn't give soon I will run everyone away! I am as cranky as an old bitty! My neighbor came over last night to return a casserole dish and as I went to the door I told my hubby that when we move I never want to even say hey to a neighbor...I think she heard me because earlier this morning I said hey and she blew me off. The cats, my hubby, everything and everybody is getting on my nerves! My hubby tries to be understanding but on days like this being single and childless (and catless) sounds nice.Then I wouldn't have to worry about hurting anyones feelings or letting anyone down. I had made plans for today to take my son shopping for some jeans. He's almost 18 and it is rare that he wants his mom to do anything like that with him and it was his idea. Now I let him down AGAIN! My hubby had to go to a funeral of a friend by hisself today....once again I let him down.
Laundry is piled up. The house is a mess! Oh God! My life sucks today!
At least I have this place to express my feelings without upsetting anyone. Because noone has to read it. I am so thankful to have a place to vent on days like this. Here lately days like this have been way too many.
Thanks for giving me a place to get it off my chest. Thanks for giving me a place to talk to others and read about others who understand first hand what I am going through!
Ok... think it is time to bring out the big guns and take some Dilaudid. I know I run the risk of rebound headache but Lord give me a couple of hours of painfree bliss.
Anita
You sound so worn out and tired and sad, it really sucks doesn't it? I can so relate to having reached that point many times too, just like you have and I'm so glad to hear it helped for you to write it here and express it rather than bottle it up .... it's not easy when you can't do things with the kids/family/friends time after time and it feels terrible to 'let them down'. When I'm in the space you are now all I can do is try and find just one tiny thing to hang on to and smile about (can't always do it, but when I can it helps - usually it's my partner that helps me smile, I'm blessed). All the best, hang in there, we can all hang in there together. Carol.
Thanks Carol for the words of encouragement. They mean a lot. after sleeping most of the day I feel somewhat better. The migraine pain level is down to tolerable and I was able to eat. But now I feel weepy. I really hate this part. Hubby can't handle it when I cry. But at times like these something as simple as you words of encouragement can start the waterworks flowing.
Thanks again for the spirit booster!
Anita