All my life I have been the positive one. I love to make others smile or chuckle. I'm always the one to give words of encouragement. I always try to see the positive in all situations. Always seeing the good in people and giving the benefit of the doubt. I miss the old me! I am trying desperately to get back to the way I was. I want to laugh freely again.

I started today withhelping out a new neighbor of mine. There are 5 of them that moved in with another family of 3 into a small 3 bedroom home. So I went out and bought the makings for a complete Thanksgiving dinner and gave it to them. The tears in the mom's eyes and her smile and hug was very rewarding. Ya know what? All of a sudden my problems didn't seem quite so big. Sure my head still hurts and my life is the same but my perception of it is different. Simply by shifting my focus from myself to others. Also I have adopted a soldier in Iraq for the holidays.

So it's a step in the right direction. Will I fall back into the pity party agian? Sure I will. Hopefully I will remember this and shake out of the blues quicker.

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers.

~Anita