I have been experiencing horrible migraines now for as long as I remember.  They worsened tremendously about 4 years ago.  I've gone through every drug possible, every vitamin and supplement possible, every type of treatment possible i.e. accupuncture, massage, chiropractor, chinese herbal healing etc. etc.

I have a husband with two children. 

What I'm going through right now is the depression that I cannot live and do the things that I would normally be doing if I didn't feel so debilitated from the pain.  I have tons of guilt about not being able to take my children out and play as often as I would like. 

I really don't think anyone in my family understands quite what I have and am still going through.  They think if Im not constantly complaining about it (which I do NOT do anymore) then Im feeling fine.  Which this is NOT the case. 

My sister planned a get together for me and my mother at a restaurant for tomorrow for our birthdays.  Im already wondering if Im going to be able to make it.  Most of the times I go to events any way and SUFFER greatly through them.  I try and pull it off (miserably inside) to make other people glad that I came. 

Im sooo tired of talking about me.... but that's all it's been about is how "mommy" is feeling. 

The pain is another story in itself.  Sometimes its so unbearable that I cannot stand to hear my own voice.  Light is horrible.  Im wearing my sunglasses indoors.

Today, the pain is better because Im able to type. 
I hope I haven't depressed everyone reading this. 

I just feel so alone sometimes in my feeling helpless with this disease.

When I go to doctors they seem to not know what else to do with me.