I try to be really positive about my Migraines and life in general. It's one of the good things that have come from my Migraine experience. Although I am learning to be more positive, sometimes I get frustrated. I would like to vent. I hope this helps someone else who is struggling.

I try really hard to not use the word stupid. There's really no good use of the word stupid. I tell my kids not to use that word. Well, lately, I've been talking to my head. I will say "stupid Migraine." It happened today after I went downstairs to try to exercise and had to quit after seven minutes. I came back upstairs. My husband looked at me and said, "your head started hurting didn't it?" And my answer was, "yes, stupid Migraine!" I get so mad at it sometimes. My getting mad and calling my Migraines stupid doesn't help anything but sometimes it does make me feel a little better.

It really frustrates me that my Migraines are interfering with my exercise. I started exercising back in the fall of 2007. I decided after the Migraine episodes started to try to "fix" everything I could since I couldn't seem to fix the Migraines. I started working on my weight and started exercising. Well, I've lost 30 lbs. since then. I still have about 30 more to go, and I've come to love exercising. I actually want to exercise now. I had to quit exercising this past November when there was a fear that I had an aneurysm. At my last appointment, my Migraine specialist told me I could start back exercising. She said to start out very slow and if my head started to hurt, to stop. Well, most days lately my head has hurt too bad to even try. I really want to exercise again.

I get asked a lot... "How are you doing?" Well, I am a very honest person, and I always want to tell the truth when asked a question. But everyone doesn't really want to know how I'm doing, you know? Well, I noticed this past week I was getting really frustrated and having a problem with a little bit of a stinkin' attitude. So, I was thinking I should vent a little bit on paper. So here's what I want to say (sometimes I would like to scream) when people ask how I am doing: "I have a headache every day. Every day, there is some sort of pain going on in my head. My head has hurt every day since August 2007. I have not had one single day since August 2007 where I did not have some sort of pain in my head. Did I mention that my head hurts every single day?" OK, that's enough of that.

I try to live with a balance of positive attitude and realistic thinking. It's hard not to fear a bad Migraine. Sometimes, I will stay away from loud places because it might make my head worse. Well, loud places are never a good place for me. If my head is not feeling too bad, it could make it worse. If it already feels really bad, it could make me feel a lot worse and take me down for the day. I keep ear plugs with me at all times. I had some custom made. They don't block out the noise totally but it helps to knock it down.