Beyond Thinking

Beyond Thinking

I need to think clearly but I am feeling too much anguish,

My thoughts are interrupted by pulsating rhythms that continue to increase in intensity.

The pounding that exists grows stronger and louder with each passing moment,

All other sounds are masked and blurred to the point of causing sheer confusion.

My mind is cloudy and my thoughts are hidden behind a veil,

I try to push beyond the clutter but all I feel is the rawness of the pain.

A band tightens across my forehead and I begin to feel unsteady,

My world is spinning around me and I waver in my stance.

I must lie down and search for answers to help me with this harsh dilemma,

Perhaps there is a path that will guide and lead me to relief from this stress and pain.

I know these feelings as they have visited me often in my past.

I am sure there are answers but I cannot find them while my mind betrays me.

Stress grips my body and all my muscles begin to tense and spasm,

I need to breathe deeply and slowly while thinking pleasant thoughts.

I want to visualize my special place where there is pleasure and contentment,

Safety, security and calmness are fleeting emotions that I aggressively must seek.

Why does this monster visit me and torture my tired and restless mind?

I am breathing and allowing the stress to flow down and out of my body,

The intensity of my pain begins to decrease.

I no longer feel the panic or the fear from the unknown,

I drift into a space somewhere between consciousness and sleep.

And I am confident that relief from pain awaits me in my dreams.

The hours pass slowly and I lie frozen in suspended animation.

I begin to float effortlessly from my dream world toward stark reality,

I awaken feeling renewed and without the demons that once plagued me.

I can think again as my pain has taken up residence in some unknown place,

I smile with the hope that it stays there, never to return or visit me again.

Written by Pamela J. Lindsay, A.L.M. to describe the feelings and experiences of dealing with stress and tension induced head and body pain.  April 17, 2009.

Copyright 2009 by Pamela J. Lindsay, A.L.M.