Windows - A Migraine Patient's 30 Days of Gratitude
Migraine, especially chronic Migraine, sometimes has us locked in our homes and kept from the outdoor activities we love. We need reminders that life hasn't stopped because we've been stuck inside our homes and can't get outdoors. For me, this is where my windows are a vital part of keeping my sanity through a bad situation.
Can you imagine what it would be like, to be cooped up inside your home for days, weeks or even months, without so much as a glimpse outside, even to see what time of the day it is?
It often surprises the general public how hard we often have to try to protect ourselves from light. The things we have to do so that our homes are safe places for us to be during attacks. Some patients are lucky enough that having a Migraine room with no windows is a possible sanctuary for them. Many of us find we have the need to block nearly all of our windows, just so we can survive our attacks when we are at home, alone and needing to fend for ourselves.
My house was a desperate situation. We have a lot of big windows. It was one of the draws of our home when we bought it. We can see nearly all 240 acres of our farm from the windows of our home. This meant I could see all 40 of my horses too, and I couldn't imagine anything could get better than that. But the light forced us to use black trash bags, which we taped up behind curtains to block out the light. This is a technique used by drug dealers who make or grow their own products, and it always made me feel somehow guilty that I was doing something that could make someone else suspect that I was making meth or growing pot. I guess that's the law enforcement connections coming back to the surface again.
After we replaced our windows with highly tinted and UV protected glass, I was able to - ceremoniously and with great glee - tear off the trash bags and pitch them into the trash, never to be seen again! Aahhh, that was a great day indeed. Now I appreciate every window I get to look out of. I still have blackout curtains in my bedroom that are rarely opened. That's okay though, because I still have all the other windows I can sit and look through. Yes, doing this reminds me of the things I no longer can do in my life, but it also shows me such beauty that words fail me.
Today, on day 23 of our 30 Days of Gratitude, I am so very grateful for windows I can see through, to remind me of the beautiful things around me. They help show me how far I've come in learning how to manage a condition over which I have precious little control.
Keeping a gratitude journal is one of the ways I cope with being disabled by my Migraines. Teri and others find it helpful for them too, and they're sharing their thankfulness things with you here.
Would you like to join us? It's easy to keep a gratitude journal, and you're always welcome to share any of it here in our community. Journals can be handwritten or kept on your computer. To share here, you can create a SharePost of your own, or you can post comments to our posts.
For a listing of all of our 30 Days of Gratitude posts, see A Migraine Patient's 30 Days of Gratitude - Introduction.
Live your best life,
© Ellen Schnakenberg, 2013.
Last updated November 23, 2013.