For those of you who suffer from migraines, I am so so sorry. I feel your pain and I can sympathize with you to the fullest. I have a big heart for those who have been through one. They are not just any headache. I suffer from A-Typical migraines with Aura. It's not a common migraine but one that is intensified causing paralysis of certain parts of your body. It's completely debilitating.

I fought one off today. I was lucky to dodge the 24 hour pain induced right after an Aura. I have had them ever since I was 7. But being pregnant has triggered a whole array of these terrible things. It's the most pain I have felt in a while. The first one I had since being pregnant was last month, when I started to see spots, then colors I have never seen before, a kaleidoscope of geometrical shapes that trigger eye pain in every direction you look. Then, after about a half hour of seeing funky things, the headache comes, it's an all-over headache. Mainly in the back where the cortex is. Light and noise become things you cannot even stand. A dark solitary confinement is all you crave. After the headache starts, then the state of confusion comes, (i.e. was I suppose to go on green or red?) Road signs become foreign to you, the lines in the road become mesmerizing as you temporarily forget what they all mean. Then as in your state you remain, you start to question your own sound of your voice, feeling shaky and sweaty you start to feel nauseated. Puking seems like the only thing you can do. I threw up about 5 times at once, feeling helpless. My hands were numb and so was my face. I couldn't understand how all this could stem from a migraine. I was in my own silent hell that nobody knows what you are experiencing unless they have had one.

Today it began with reading. As I was sitting there reading back to myself what I had typed, I noticed I couldn't read to myself in my head. I was so confused; words were not coming to me. I tried to depict what the word looked like but knew what it was but could neither comprehend saying it nor even voice it to myself. I was so helpless. As I sat there trying to read, trying to speak, I couldn't speak. I could not say a word. I tried, but all that came out was bu bu bu, or mumblings of only and incoherent drunk would slur. What if my phone rang? What if I couldn't say anything normal? How long was this going to last? Luckily for me, it was about 5 minutes. Then I took two Tylenol to prevent the headache from kicking in. I started crying because this has never happened to me before. I have been to the doctor numerous times and he told me all of this is normal for an A-Typical Migraine and they intensify with pregnancy. Men rarely get migraines. If there is anyone reading this, and you have suffered these before, I would like to know what you have gone through and how you deal with it. This is a scary experience and nobody should ever have to go through this and nobody would understand what I am saying, only if you have gone through it.